Write Off Days

I try to stay as positive as I can day to day but there are times I just cannot shake a mood! On these days even doing things I love like seeing friends, lunching and dancing do not help so sometimes it is better to admit defeat and give up. If I'm working or at college I will finish my shift, cancel my plans and go straight home for bed and a cup of tea (maybe stopping for a bar of chocolate).

This downtime is so important because if we trudge on without allowing the odd lazy day/evening then the deflated, tired mood can fester and be harder to lose. Being completely unproductive can actually be the best thing to do! Allow it to happen without beating yourself up and try to start tomorrow refreshed :) 

Happy sleeping! 

LetsTalk About the Madness of Labels!

Think of all the things others label you as- good, bad or neither. Here's my list: girl, English, white, dancer, student, singer, spiritual etc.. 

Now if you change your list or completely delete it, who are you? Are you different? Someone else? I believe the essence of who you are stays the same. Our very being is not determined by these things so why should our identities?

This probably makes no sense right now and maybe I am going to deep into this but, grab your snorkel because it's too late now! An example... My name is Amelia but I am not Amelia, there's more to me than that. I could be called Helen or Moonrider and nothing would be different. Sure that is just my name and something like religion is much more than that. It might change your actions and choices and where you end up in life. However stripping away all of these layers and names, we are just flesh and bone so why can't we just be? Why must we name something before we feel it, do it or own it? 

Gay wasn't a problem until straight people made it so and Muslim wasn't a bad word until terrorists changed it and non-muslims didn't understand it. I just so believe in the phrase live and let live. As long as it's inside the law what does it really matter what we do in this crazy universe anyway!

Because I am not a dancer, I'm not English, I am not even straight or white. I am just a being that enjoys dancing, lives in England, likes boys and has white skin. These are facts and not ME. If one changes or grows or leaves, my self is not affected. Labels breed hate and confusion and separation and I don't want to get so hung up on whether something has a name or if others have it too. I just want to feel it and be it and live it. 

I think the picture below describes it better than I do...

Soul Mates

I feel that all of our honest, real friends are our soul mates. They are a handful of people

 out of 7 billion we choose to share experiences and parts of ourselves with. 

I love the phrase soul mates- it makes me think of 2 souls just chilling and grabbing coffee, it's a funny thought but a damn sweet one.

Here's a few things my soul mates give me:

L 

is the youngest of my friends but years beyond her age, we share a love for chocolate and she could be a millionaire and not want to buy a bus ticket!! There is never a dull moment because her energy is so positive. You are so beautiful and don't need to change a thing so just accept it!!

B

Such a strong woman, not just with her titles and records in weightlifting but her spirit and attitude to life, she wants something she will go and get it. She has done things that I'm not sure I could and for that there is so much respect! Her self confidence does have it's downfall but you know you'll always get an honest opinion;)

E

Taught me what a friend was, loyal to the last bone and fiercely protective. We are completely the opposite but exactly the same... She is caring and soft and stubborn but I hope she sees and loves herself as we do! Chase your passion , own it and be the true babe you are. 

U 

is so easy to be with, she honestly doesn't care who you are or where you're from. This one has introduced me to new ways of living which I am forever grateful for. You've become awfully soppy in your old age but I'm just about used to it; oh and stop panicking because you are going to be so much more than fine.

The most important thing for me to remember if that no friendship or person (including myself) is perfect. Once you wholly accept this, and get rid of expectations and stop trying to change people, then friends can become soulmates.

Thank you to every one of my friends (some I haven't mentioned) for accepting me exactly as I am and for being exactly who you are.